There came a time in my life when I was younger and after a very difficult and unhappy childhood, that I decided I was going to embody a no fear/no regrets attitude. I did not want to get beaten down so far that I did not get up. I wanted to keep getting up and and every time get up higher, to elevate my character.
The thing is, I was a long way from this no fear, and no regrets person. It was such a vast distance I couldn't see her, I had no idea what she looked and sounded like.
Over the years I kept returning to that powerful desire to live without fear or regret during terrible struggles and suffering from either illness or tragedy. It was forging me all the while though I may not have realized it until I truly felt unafraid and consistently grateful, even in the roughest spots. This was the forge, this was beating out all that was keeping me back and that was extraneous to a happy, healthy life. I was left raw and unburdened.
Today, only ten days into a new place after an explosion and fire (a neighbor lit a cigarette while on oxygen) and a month in a hotel working very hard to keep on track and get into a place quickly with minimum disruption or lasting impact, no fear/no regret has been fully employed!
Michelle Espinosa is Blog-o-licious
I hope not to squander this life on anything less than love. And what do I mean by love? Think fierce love. Love that cuts to the core, that burns away all nonsense in an instant to get at what is most human. M+